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Hello. I don't really know if this is much of an improvement from the previous site I've made, but I'd say that I'm proud of it. I'll hopefully update this site more, and maybe even replace it with the old one. I'm going to archive the old entries, because some of the biggest mistakes I've ever made is removing old videos and images.
I've had so much cool videos I've made from when I was a kid that are now permanentally erased because I thought it was unmature of me to post those videos. Anyways, have fun browsing my website.
Holy shit.
So a lot have changes has happened between November 2025 and March 2026, dramatically. During Christmas break, I decided I wanted to stay with my grandmother because we thought it'd be a better decision then staying with my father, and it was. I eat a little healthier, school is fantastic, made my first friend since 2022, and my mental health has gotten so much better. I do miss my father and siblings, but I believe that I made the right decision to stay here with my grandmother.
It feels a little weird and makes me feel like a reddit moderator who sits in their grandmothers basement. I confronted my grandmother about how I feel about this transition to living with my grandmother and she said, "Atleast you aren't an adult, you're just a kid." I guess it makes sense, but still feels a little weird not living with my father and siblings.
I also don't really want this site to be a online diary kind of thing, I'd rather it be a sorta life archive kind of thing. I recently read Ready Player One and was inspired by Halliday to write everything that ever happened in my life into a online archive for other people to see. I won't obviously include everything from my life, but I like the idea of having a website to look back at stuff. I think it'd be cool to look back at old videos when I'm older in my website to get some nostalgia.
Holy SHIT!
So I just literally wrote like 20 paragraphs of my WHOLE life when trying to write my about me page, and midway through writing it I realised it was a really stupid idea and just scrapped it. I have a page with 10% of my life pretty much recorded. Well, what I remember of my life... I also added the other pages and stuff, so now those work. It's 11 pm on a school night, and I'm really tired. Happy rollin'.
It's been 2 months since my last edit on here. I've been pretty busy with school, and I just haven't been using my pc that much. The pc I'm using right now is complete dog shit, but I am grateful that I actually have something that can run most thing that I like to play. I can only play older games which is fine for me, but I just miss Half Sword, Exanima, and Kingdom Come Deliverance 2...
I read some of my old prompts from couple years ago, and I realised how dramatic my writings are, and how much useless and sensitive info there is on there. One of the prompts was me complaining about, "the infection on my back." While yes, I do have a bacterial infection, it's not like a giant syst on my back. I just have really bad acne, and it's getting better now, since I'm taking antibiotics. Another one was me saying that I appreciated being with my dad and not my mother. I don't talk to my mother anymore, but I REALLY didn't need to include that... It could've been like, I don't know, happy that I'm living somewhere better.
I'm not doing so well.
Summer break has started and I feel like I am wasting time. Everyday, I wake up, spash water on my face, get some breakfeast, sit on my computer for hours, shower, take medication, and go to bed. I wan't to go outside, breath fresh air, go camping with my family, play sports, go swimming, hang out with my cousins, hang out with my siblings, hang out with my dad, yet here I am. I'm just stuck inside rotting on my chair.
I'm not treating myself very well lately. I've been overeating and my diet isn't very healthy. I wake up at 10 am and fall asleep at 2-3 am. I feel like I just need something different. I was always outside when I was younger, and I didn't mind if it was hot or cold, I just wanted to be outside. I'm just stuck in my room.
I've been wanting to talk to someone about how I am feeling but I don't think anyone around me will care or will make any attempt at helping me, and they just aren't really someone I'd like to vent to. I don't really like venting about shit cause it makes me feel like I'm just immature and that I should just man the hell up.
I'm feeling a bit better.
I've been looking at some of the sites on here, and they are so cool. I tried to fix it by adding a little box on the side that displays how I'm feeling, but I gave up. I don't like flex boxes that much. They're kinda confusing to me.
I came here to write cause I wanna start documenting my progress towards making games in Godot. For years I've wanted to make a game, but I've always put it off by saying "maybe when I'm an adult I'll figure it out." I hate saying that because I'd rather just get it done rather then dwell on it. Each day I'll do 30 minutes of work, so I avoid burnout.
I created a little stickman guy that's 32x32 in Paint.net. Then I also made a 32x32 sprite which is a small little box. I managed to figure out what a 2Dnode was, so that's good. I haven't added any controls so far but since I like to make older games, I lowered the screens resolution to 800 x 600, cause it was cool... so cool. Anyways that's literally it. Goodbye.